how many times does a girl have to say no before a boy understands
that no doesn't equal maybe or yes?
that no doesn't equal maybe or yes?
it's a terrible feeling being the victim of sexual abuse. to have your body and mind violated, being pinned down, crying, repeating no even though it sounds more and more hollow as it progresses.
it's scary to be abused by someone you know and trust but reality is that it's way more common that that's the case rather than some stranger. it's complicated and you are constantly reminded of it.
the worst thing to deal with afterwards is the misplaced guilt and shame, feeling unfaithful... how do I tell the one I care about what's happened? I don't want to hurt him with this knowledge but I'd want to know if it'd happened to him...
I realize that the guilt and the shame is misplaced but that doesn't make it go away.
I feel soiled and like I've done a terrible thing. I can't help but feel that I am to blame... I don't want to hurt him! I've been blessed to have been able to talk it through with two wonderful mates and I will tell him, on Friday, I can't do this over the phone....
+ I want to feel his arms around me.
it's scary to be abused by someone you know and trust but reality is that it's way more common that that's the case rather than some stranger. it's complicated and you are constantly reminded of it.
the worst thing to deal with afterwards is the misplaced guilt and shame, feeling unfaithful... how do I tell the one I care about what's happened? I don't want to hurt him with this knowledge but I'd want to know if it'd happened to him...
I realize that the guilt and the shame is misplaced but that doesn't make it go away.
I feel soiled and like I've done a terrible thing. I can't help but feel that I am to blame... I don't want to hurt him! I've been blessed to have been able to talk it through with two wonderful mates and I will tell him, on Friday, I can't do this over the phone....
+ I want to feel his arms around me.
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